This post is delicate to those people who managed to talk so much jiao wei in my tagboard when i was sleeping when my friends messaged and called me about it. Just reply to those cbox people.

****DillonIfYouLikeTo: dillon say : "rip and **** me if you like"

30 Sep 07, 22:44 Peter Pan: can gimi ur num . i am a g@y . we be g@y wan ?

30 Sep 07, 22:39 Peter Pan: i love u babe babe ~

30 Sep 07, 22:36 ELAIINE: always 0nlii kn0w h0w tuhh be wiith munyee blah blah/. euur g@y grp niia. er xin nehh.

30 Sep 07, 22:36 Peter Pan: piss off for wad fk ?go home and slp better lar . Mummy it over T.T

30 Sep 07, 22:35 NoÖb¥Sh¥t™: no money buy

30 Sep 07, 22:34 ELAIINE: EEyer. i th0ught tdhatt euu wannted tuhh buyc0ntact lenses? where's iit? so fking g@y? pple from ur sec 3 na diisturb euu niia/ d0nt even dare tuh talk back. humm arhhh.

30 Sep 07, 22:29 NoÖb¥Sh¥t™: he kay poh what. he felt insulted when i say melvin 100 bucks i say 100 only coz he can't afford to have 100 bucks

30 Sep 07, 22:28 ELAIINE: Pple lyke melviin and hiim friends als0 cannot arhh? niid euu t0 care? **** 0ff luh.

30 Sep 07, 22:27 NoÖb¥Sh¥t™: Precisely, kid. Since u not scared of me, come ahead find me. Anytime.

30 Sep 07, 22:26 ScreamIfYouLikeTo: Aniwae,Spore is not that COOL.Nobody know where is Spore located,coz its not even a tiny dot on the map.So be proud that foreigners come to ur small country to study.Without them,spore is death! _I_

30 Sep 07, 22:25 ELAIINE: ehhs. pple wanna wriite whhat theiir taii jii larhh. n0t y0ur pr0blem als0 riight. y0u als0 pissiing hiim 0ff wad. guaii lan kiia.

30 Sep 07, 22:25 ScreamIfYouLikeTo: maybe u juz jealous of that guy u mentioned on ur blog.just get a life dude.U're still a BOY and look like a freaking gay.All of ur pics like shyt.Act cute.

ScreamIfYouLikeTo: Lmao, i don't have to get jealous over a fucking arrogant guy. I've what i needed already, so what if i like to take pictures and act cute? It's totally none of your business.
If i'm a freaking gay, you're a fucking old bitch. I bet you are one. I'm still one boy? I bet you're an old virgin then. I bet you don't even have the ability to act cute for godness sake.

ELAIINE: eh, i say him got say until you is it? He insulted my friends leh, i guai lan so what? I offend so many people liao, asshole, you don't frighten me. if people insulted your friends, you happy with it?

ScreamIfYouLikeTo: lmao, gladly leave singapore then. Leave it, why do you still come here to study? Singapore don't need fucking arrogant bastard to criticize people. It's because of all these people that causes riots and fighting.

NoÖb¥Sh¥t™: lmao, i'm a kid? how old are you? how are you to say that i'm kid when you're smaller than me? In terms of knowledge, you're much stupidity. You don't scare me, feel free to find me.

ELAIINE: lmao, i don't even understand what you're saying by "Pple lyke melviin and hiim friends als0 cannot arhh? niid euu t0 care? **** 0ff luh. "? Please use better english next time, don't try to act cute with your words that really puke me. LMAO@you.

NoÖb¥Sh¥t™: lmao get a life dude, to me, moneys? you think moneys can cure everything? can buy everything? naive. LMAO. $100? i can even throw that on you.

ELAIINE: lmao, i buy contact lense is totally none of your business? You thought we are as rich as those foreigners, i had to work to earn, what about you all? disturbing other people lifes by insulting? Anyway, come on lah, people say me i don't scold them? I treat them as friends loh. If they want to scold me, for all they like. I don't care anymore. Cause these are already meaningless to me. They can hated me for who i am, but i can't change for their needs. You should work as maid so you can fulfill their needs. You are obviously making from bad to worst by helping him.

NoÖb¥Sh¥t™: you say i had no money to buy? so what if i have not? and so what if i have? does it even concern you?

Peter Pan: arrogant attitude lead to none better. that pissed me off. LMAO. asshole. mummy it's over? LMAO, making me laugh. I'm not mummy boy. Not as simple as what you imagine.

ELAIINE: lmao i'm that popular? i bet you're crying alone over there pathetic, cause i don't even know who you're. munyee? she is my best friend. you don't experience the pain when people scold your friend cause i bet you don't have any true friends, or even not experience. my gay group? You're utterly wrong bitch. Does we behave in other way, mean that we're gay? Bitch, seriously you have no life, cause you are so brainless. Er xin neh? kns? stop saying that cause you really disgusted me bits by bits.

Peter Pan: you think it's that funny? LMAO, i bet your hole is rotten by now then. your mom must be crying at home, thinking about what son she has just borned.

****DillonIfYouLikeTo: lmao, seriously, i don't sell myself, get a life. GIGLOO[: LMAO@them lah. seriously, if there are these people of like, insulting people and gladly scram over thinking that it is funny? LMAO, they're wrong, i seriously can't stopped laughing about what they have wrote, cause they don't even understand me. LMAO once again. In case what you don't know what's LMAO retarted, it's laughing my ass out, i can't believe that childish peoples can actually called others childish. And it's even wrong to help a friend when she/he being insulted. I don't care. I don't scare them. I'm not that simple as what they did i'm. And thanks to that ELAIINE, i finally understand that, if you actually want to have peace with your classmates, you can actually scolded them. Their words are just as brainless as what they're. Ohya, my dental appointment is tomorrow. won't be able to speak much anymore ^_^ Posted, bloggers[x

Let me ask something blogger..

Do you all like to read people blog silently and not tagging?

Cause i can check who had visited my blog. And the ratio is like 30+ peoples reading per day, but 1 or 2 tagged hardly per day.

Maybe i'm in a wrong, for not understanding that you all don't want to tag. Cause there's this thing always go around. When you're in a wrong, you always thought that it's other people who caused it, and pushing the blame to them. But you know you're in the wrong. I'm an off living example. Life is really getting well for me now and then. I can see that actually life isn't that bad than what we expected or seen. To us, we are already fortunate using computers to read people blog. What about the others? We alway blame our parent for not giving us enough, not enough money to spend, not enough care and concern etc.. Have you ever thought of the reasons behind? They have difficulties, who knows? If they're stressed enough, and we add a burden to them, wouldn't it more worst?

I know i'm nagging. Sorry then. Do consider about my words blogger. Love is what that entire world have. Love.. lead to many consequences. Peace, cooperation etc.

Shall off bloggers.

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Fuck shit, i'm so damn angry and pissed up right now, by one guy, i'll show you his url.
http://profiles.friendster.com/user.php?uid=12367038
fucker, he actually insulted us all. who do he think he is? he actually insulted munyee as a hungry ghost, and us as a bian tai gay, CHEEBYE LAH! I REALLY CAN'T STAND IT. I SURE GIVE HIM A TASTE OF MY COLOURS WHEN WE'RE IN SCHOOL AND I MET HIM. I SWEAR. HE IS REALLY TOO OVERBOARD. WHY DON'T HE REFLECT ON HIMSEL INSTEAD? HE CAN'T BE WORST AND UGLIEST MAN IN THE ENTIRE WORLD! LMAO! MAYBE I SHOULD CALM DOWN AND NOT GETTING ANGRY OVER THAT FUCKING USELESS BOY. LMAO! seriously, to me, that kind of people are so fucking arrogant. and he actually wrote all type of comment on melvin picture on friendster. fuck shit. he say, cause there were a receipt on melvin picture which cost $100, he actually say $100 only also want to show off, come on lah, eh we are only students leh, $1000 you expected us? ccb, use your brain before you write. actually a words of disgusting suit you the best. HAHAHA, you might be rich, but you are brainless! LMAO! stop polluting singapore society and scram back to your old fucking country.

Went mac to study just now with Suen, Aaron, and Darren. Which followed by WuJing and Cheryl who came later. I realise that i really can't concentrade on my studies, and i will quit school if i fail my EOY exam.

Has been having flu and headache just now. But still study. Hope my hardwork pay.

Everyone was playing just now. Studied till play and play. All were laughing and talk about all sort of stuff. And WuJing and I had a competition for staring competition. Haha, we cried in the end, cause it was unbearable. And Cheryl was taking the video! LOL!

And we stay tilled 7. And went food hunting, but no available food is found. [x So we went around without eating. And they accompanied me to go mac buy MacFurry again. It's the 2nd time -.- And jing was eating it non-stop lah! In the end, i only ate a few mouth! And there was like this nobody stage outside the mac.

And we went up and sing! LOL! It was so hilarious.


-sick! tired!
`flu`fever`headache!

shall blog tomorrow.

Right now at vivo carls jr! HAHA, stole samsung connection!
su en here xDD
that's what she wrote. :\ alright. enjoyed our day today, as there are so much relief teacher around!

shall end.


DESIRE FOR PSP!!!!
I WAN ITTTTTTTTTTTTT.
SOMEONE GIVE IT FOR MY BIRTHDAY? HAHAHA[X

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everything is going well for life currently, i guess. [x tomorrow is kevin birthday, although quarreled with him and never talked since then, but just wish him a belated happy birthday! went shopping spree just now lmao! and finally found the present!

and..

suen slapped aaron today! HAHA, aaron almost kissed an old man! LMAO! she slapped her till his mouth almost killed that old man. we were all laughing like hell man! HAHA super duper funny. [x

averie don't too sad. let it go. [x

In school currently, at the library[: I'm here for art. Looking for pictures for art, and have only found 4 images i guess? Ms goh told me that, you can't think of the final desgin, and i was like so confuse, i want to do my art well. And certainly, no one wants to do their subject bad right? I'm just confuse on my topic right now.

Anyway, before art was PE, it was so hilarious! Had the best PE ever although i hadn't been participating in any PE after that case. It was meaningless for me to PE again. Well, i don't care anyway, the teacher don't care anyway. PE was so funny, they were playing captain ball, and we can only occupy half of the hall because the other class was here too. And they were playing until so funny, i believe you will laugh off your teeth if you were there. HAHAHAHAHA, i can't stand it. Everyone was like, o. Playing till very fiece, yet funny. I really enjoyed sitting at the edges of the staircase looking at their hilarious action.

And i shall use better english next time, since teacher actually see my blog! [x So i won't use alot of vulgar for the sake for them!

Meeting joel later, i hope he will turn up. I really hope so. He has been lying to all of us since the day he never come school. But i believe, i'll try my best to make him pass. [x

All the best, bloggers.

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Played audition with aaron, melvin and su en earlier on, i was like lagging to hell -.- but i was still first! HAHA, su en almost catch up with me! Haha, she was dissapointed uh. Elvin paiseh us. never play. LOLL.

Okay anyway, went to mac just now, we had a bunch of our 2B there [x and we were like guai kia! [x everyone studying, and met joel! finally got to see him man! and joel had.. 3 tutors of changing? HAHA, he was so so so dumb. [x

And okay, i love miss goh! I believe my class too! She's really damn nice! And she didn't turn up for today :( Sadd. guess she's sick. was messaging her just on when on library, wahha[x anyway she was so damn good as i say, she fork out her money for us lah! she's so good. she can buy gatchet for us, give everyone class photo which she pay herself, and buy us ton ton ton ton of stuffs and love! [x she's paying for the up coming class outing for the movie tickets too! can you imagine? she can fork out everything for us! LOVEEEEEEE<3

anyway, i have been saying that i want to delete my blog right? but i think there are regular customer to my blog! can't delete anymore i guess! ahaha[x

class is getting better, hope for the betterest. LOLLLL

EMOCRATICCCCC

FUCK LAH, MY DAD WAS JUST, DRUGGING AGAIN? A HOME WITHOUT PEACE.

GOSH! CANNOT ZILIAN LIAO. guess what? my phone camera have actually spoil!

brought 2 handphones to school today, cause my other line message was overdue? i'm not sure. i just guessing, cause have been messaging peoples nowaday.

guess what? I'M HAPPY TODAY[x

Have been having stomach ache since morning. And upset till now, until i lose my appetide during recess time.

This is what happened i was unhappy of.

1st, i didn't expect someone to hack my blog. that person could have gladly tell me that want my password, and i will give. i'm utterly dissapointed with that person loh. i won't forgive that person der, and i make sure that person give up hope on me. i rather uplocked my blog.

2nd, i just don't understand. don't understand why mrs yeow choose averie instead of me? on sketching, i won't lose her der loh. on pastel i also won't lose her. only on paint i'll lose her der loh. then mrs yeow choose her loh. i felt that it's unfair loh. x( i'm just upset loh. she choose her to design the bag for the SAMFEST loh. comeon lah, on creativity i also won't lose her loh. i promised i won't turn on on that day. i'll just have ms goh upset. I don't care anymore.

3rd, relationship problem. stop bothering me now, and gladly fuck off. i really tired of all these, keep bothering me about i really like you leh, blah blah. then? so what? i don't love anyone of you. maybe in the past, not now. just give up hope bah, i want to study now. i want to concentrade study liao. i don't want to lose to any of my friends, i don't want to retain.

4th, joel didn't turn up for his chinese oral today. i'm even dissapointed in him. that oral is so damn easy. i could turn it upside down to read even. he just don't want to turn up. he want to give up on himself. but nevermind. i'm meeting him on thursday to study. i hope i can at least pass some skill to him.

5th, my classmates. why don't they just study? do they really want to retain? i'm begging them in my blog, perphas they didn't read, but i just hope that they can realise that study is what important right now in the year end.

i won't give up on myself, i will buck up my studies. i will catch up with my friends, if my friends can do it, why can't i? it's just a little bit of more hardwork. [: let's do it, blogger.

anyway, going out with doreen mei and her friends later. and of course, not forgetting my mei suen~ and aaron and melvin[:


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back from that celebration. was funny but after that, i got sad. (x we went to tiong to eat LJS, after that i laosai -.- cause stomach has been hurting since morning. so after that we went tiong park to play. candles, and firework.. met so much of our school peoples at there. and they were fooling too. doreen mei was intend to meet us one loh, but in the end we were playing on our own. they were cutting cake. actually aaron, melvin and me intend to go and say hi to them, but it was so embrassing -.- so a few attempt is failed. haha, they were thirsty, so suen and me went to brought drinks. and guess what? WE SAW YANXING, CHIN FUNG AND YUZHU! haha, was so "qiao". invited them to come along with us to celebrate. [: and went there.. saw doreen mei and her friends and they were singing birthday song and she treated aaron eat cake. so good right? nv treat us. hahas. no lah, aaron say it was sharing, but i was emo but that time. hahha[: so didn't eat instead. and we were playing with firework and took our "family photo" hahas[: we actually asked stranger to help us take leh! [x SIANN. i'm so so so so sad lah. someone rejected me indirectly. hahas, i will work hard on it. gambatte. it's a challenge for me! so time were getting late. they want to go eat. so i accompany them loh. SIANN lah[x suen bluff us loh! she went home herself instead loh! still say accompany us to eat. actually is want us to accompany her home lah. and we went to the market to eat. and actually none want to eat. -.- so we were like accompany each other to eat, thinking that all of us want to eat, so we brought deserts instead. HAHAH, and i drop my desert a little lah-.- then trouble that poor auntie to wipe it for me! <3 thanks auntie. i'm sorry in other word. [x and elvin brought chee kui! [x cause he was hungry, and we were like okay loh! you go buy with your money, everytime we treat you! you should treat us! haha[x so we took a little of his chee kui and eat. anyway, no appetite. and we went to took a taxi, cause everyone was like rushing home? and the taxi part was so so so funny.

we wave our hand for a taxi, and the taxi stopped on the other side of the street, and we ran for the taxi thinking that the taxi is waiting for us! and guess what? HAHAHA, i saw the uncle taking out his spec looking at something. so when we ran to the taxi, the taxi ran infront. HAHA, so elvin and darren chase for the taxi, thinking that the uncle was intending to fetch us, HAHA, but it was so fucking funny when the uncle told them about not looking for customers! HAHA, it was so fucking funny, if you're at that situation, i believe you'll laugh off your huge big teeth. and the 2nd taxi was funny too. we went in the taxi, and the uncle couldn't see how many people were there of us. and he say, 5 ah? cannot cannot, then we say 4 only. where got 5, haha, maybe is because elvin, too black, have 2 shadows! LMAO sorry elvin. [x and we went in the taxi, and the uncle say how many places you all going? we say 3, and he was like, OHHH SORRY, I'M IN A RUSH OF TIME! lmao! we had to walked out of the taxi once again! and the 3rd taxi was equally funny. HAHAHA, i can't believe there are so much funny taxi uncles in this world! we went in, and saw he like had problem listening, so i was like omg.. we gonna die.. i was afraid that he can't hear what we were saying and where we were going, he look so gong[x cute uncle lah. so we taught him how to drive instead of him driving us! AHHA. okay shall end here.

`SADSADDERSADDIST-

Sad and pretty touched today, found out that actually mrs tay do read my blog. and i was really happy. at least someone read my blog.

MOONCAKE SUCKS!
yucks.

&PLEASE.
STOP BEHAVING IN THAT WAY.
IT REALLY DISGUSTED ME.
_|_ ASSHOLE.

-I MISSED THOSE MEMORIES,'
how i wish i can return back to those past,
the time when she say i love you,
the way how she expressed,
are undescribable way of thinking,
i missed 2chances,
a life time regret,
a hatred of despair,
i'm really sorry,
for my way of attitude,
act like i don't care.
but i did,
truly love you.

loveforyouwillneverchange.
forgesmilewillremained.
(: shall end here.'

i'm yet to find out that person who love the same song as i do.

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went swimming just now, and like the past, we went to the same place, took the same old food, walked the same old path, but with different peoples today[: elvin, aaron, darren and dillon! [: went for archade first, waiting for darren to reach upon. and went to eat on our way to archade, and i brought drinks. and the drinks were like dripping all the way from there to the archade. so i didn't went inside instead, sat outside, since i never play archade der. [: and emo.

who say emo are gay?
who say guy who camwhore are gay?

i tired all ways to apologize,
but eventually,
love for you will fade.
perhaps it still better,
for us to stay in our own world.

can i really love someone that madly again?

seeing you all together, i know what i'm doing is worth doing.

it's just an excuse of jealousy.

it's all over dude.
let it go.


I'M REALLY THAT SAD CAN?
WTFFFFFFFFFF IS HAPPENING.
FUCK STUDIES, FUCK LIFE, FUCK WORK.
LIFE SUCKS!

Won't be able to blog today in the afternoon, got to work! :]
from 12am to 12pm. cya tomorrow[:

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shall continue with the day! ;D of to work! so fun so fun so fun! it's really damn fun today, and EMO with dillon started again. someone actually gave me attitude today, and i really hated it when people give me attitude. and how hypocrite can that person be? fine, i shan't talk much about, today too much funny things have happened, and it so so so so so undescribable. only loved! rachel is so funny today. make us laughed a couple of times.

rachel story-
*light suddenly off*
dillon: "rush out from freezer"
rachel: "come out from fridge"
*looked at each other in a diao face"
HAHAHA THEN WE STARTED LAUGHING, MAYBE IT'S LAME TO YOU, BUT IT WAS SO FUCKING HILARIOUS.
rachel: "dillon!"
dillon: HAHAHAHAHHA, your face is so damn funny lah!
THEN WE STARTED LAUGHING AGAIN. and she could sing after work! sing and sing and sing. act cute song! so funny. and she say she'll open a concert next year, and shall spare me 3tickets for her 3concert! LMAO! i found it really funny.

xinhua story-
dillon: "diao"
xinhua: diao simi diao
dillon: "smile secretly"

after awhile..

xinhua: "shuai ge!"
dillon: "-.-"
xinhua: "hahaha"

and for the whole day, she was calling me that and laughing!

helmi story-
he became my brother after that.

dillon: "helped him with fryer section"

then off i go to my cook section.

dillon: "looked at him"
helmi: "looked back"
dillon: what must you say?
helmi: thanks lah!

and i helped him a couple of times, and he called me brother after that.

i actually really enjoyed working there, [: it was really fun. but too bad lah T_T exam coming ler, got to buck up on studies, shall called aaron later about tomorrow swimming thingy.

`off [:

The pour away water is like the memories that cannot be recap again.
Something is just that not you don't know, it's just that you don't want to accept it.
Everything is just too perfect to imagine.
It's life that torture us, it's world that abandoned us. It's god who punished us.
It's us who give up on ourself.

-mytragiclove.
i let you go once again.
why won't you ask again?
i might accept it.
my love for you,
are like memories,
that cannot be recap again.
love for you,
shall tarnished.

Had some weird thing happened today, have a weird dream this morning, and off to school.
Oh damn, i forgot what i'd to say.

3 lesson wasted on bio, as the teacher never come today! So we went to library, get the chance to ask suen to teach me! [: her tution fee is high. $100 for one hour man! Wahha, she's my shifu.

So after school soon..

Accompanied aaron, gary and darren to jersey shop today. Their class made jersey today, which our class is doing so too. And that gorgor is cute. LMAO talked like so funny, and ate his shop sweets. And ate katong laksa. Werid thing happened again. I was eating, and there were this brunch of secondary school kids, one go above me and see the menu cause the menu is just infront of me. And the other sat next to me, staring at me. That's what i heard from them. I felt afraid out of a sudden. LMAO. It's really scary, i know there are two eyes staring at me. I just don't want to admit it. That's probably the worst thing i had for the day.

And went back for maths tution! But miss neo went home! So our maths tution go down on a wasted. It's 2 week before the exam come! Getting nervous each day. So we went to mrs tay homeroom instead! And suen teach again! But everyone was getting too sleepy. Well, so might as well not study. So my two tutor gone. Darren and suen! Darren went to sleep and suen went fooling around with others. WUJING`chou dan. Scolded her so much today, chou chou chou. LOL. And she got damn pissed off, and disturbed me. Almost got molested today. LOL, yanxing
bian tai. x) We were like fooling around! HA(:

Went home with miss leong, mr ___, i forgot what his surname! Psps. And aaron! :D

Accompanied aaron to our working place with elvin. After that, they accompanied me to study, which turned out to be elvin studying. We went mac and eat and while i'm eating, he stole my maths book! So i sat there looking at the pictures at aaron phone. It was all in the past, those sweet memories, those wonderful moment, it was all gone. Everything just went all gone just in 3years time. I did have a good secondary life at least, for a moment. In my current class, i've nothing to say. Can't they just be friends and cooperate as one? Just because i look like or behaved like a gay, you all can't work hard for yourself? End-of-year exam is coming, and i seriously hope that the class would go up as one.

`MyworstLIVE- mytragiclove.

Nobody want to see us together,
nobody want to know.
We're just that that searing bird,
searing for nothing but love.
It may seem that our love is not strong enough,
it still proof we're as one.
I missed the chance once,
i lost the one minute together with you.
And i seriously regret,
but all was too late.
Too late for regret,
it was a foolish way to choose this road.
As we all know that this is already too late,
too late for everything to turned back.
Cause it's only an one-way infront,
we have to picked it up and walked.
It's easy to enter,
it hard to leave.


OHYAAAAAAAAAAA, mom promised to let me pierce only if i passed my exam. WAPIANGG

Today i've alot to say, you shall listen if you want. I'm alright. And firstly i'm sorry to someone in my class. alright. misunderstood him for so long.

Had english composition today, the topic was an great impact when you were small.. I immediatly think of that. This is what i wrote..


It was 14years from that fear already. It happened in my nanny house. My nanny was a good friend of my mother and i was sent to my nanny to be taken care of. It was a nightmare right from the start as i know that my mother had made the wrong choice. I was forced to study, and even not allowed to sleep. I have to swat outside her door till she's satisfy. I really thought of life and death then, since my parents don't event want to take care of me. So what the use of living in this world?

One day, i came back from school, getting bad result for test, fearing that my nanny would know. When she finally got to know it eventually, she got very angry. I standby the door of the kitchen witnessing her putting salt on cane. I was only 5year old then. Ignorant of what salt added to cane will be. She whack me like nobody business. These memories will stay forever in my mind as i know that i will revenge on her one day and will never treat my childrens like what my mom did. I did hate her for awhile, hate her for throwing me at my nanny house, but after all, she's still my mom. And no one know this, until i was 10, that i told my mom about it. She look like as if she don't believe it as the scar had disappeared after 3years of remained.


From this, i experience that actually nothing is important now in this world. That scar has deeply hurt me and from that onward, i fear pain. I don't wish to experience that pain once again and i believe that she will have have her retribution one day. Kinship, friendship, is nothing now..


That's what i wrote. This is what i really experience, and i'm sharing it. Although i know that much more people are suffering out there, mine was just a bit of pain. But, you'll never understand.. Cause you were not in my situation. I'm sorry for my childish action for the past, and i promised to change. Now i had change, to a totally different person. I look cold, unfriendly, and often scolded people off for nothing. I'm really so stressed up by work and my studies.

Went to study with melvin just now, we went to LJS to eat and study. And he only teach me a few questions? And he say he want me to pay for tution fee! I'm pretty fine. And i heard enough of these nonsense today. In english class. Stop bothering me can? I'm so fucked up. Scold me gay for all you like, i have no consecience to hide.

Last night, mom throw dad phones on the floor a couple of time. It must be my dad who went for drug again.. Why did i have this kind of dad? Why does he want to drug? WHY? WHY? I really can't stand it. He might dote on me, but he shouldn't have do this again and again! He make mom cry, in front of me. I'm really heartbroken, i do love my mom really much, with her past she did, i truly love her too.

Thanks fer reading, i really appreciate.
OHYA! guess what? I saw nizam on aaron block downstair! He's dashing with a girl beside. Haha.

& i just found out that there are so many childish people, can you all like grow up? i hardly believe it. you're laughing my ass off as all are just fool laughing at yourself. ROFLMAO(:

Only one words that can describe today, it was "FUN"

I had fun since morning, where to joy start. First lesson was assembly, i drew and drew non-stop for my art, hoping to finish it by the end of the day, but sadly, didn't. And after that was math! Melvin felt asleep like a pig which couldn't be called up. And there, aslindah giving out sweets. So some of them took some and start to eat. And wujing was the dumbest of all. She say that she wanted to try put on yellow braces and she putted the sweet in between of the teeth and braces, and after that, she tried to take off, and it stuck there! LMAO, it was so hilarous. It was awful by the way.
her ugliest teeth! HAHA.

and slept..


and after that was chemistry. boring boring boring. sigh. but i managed to copy some notes.


and time past soon, it was after school. drag gary and darren along to buy food with me, and went seperate way after eating. went to miss goh homeroom and draw! and.. YESSSSSSS i finished it!



and i drew missgoh until like a freako lah! -.- omg. only su en say alike, and miss goh say i haolian! by looking at this, it look like a doll, but in real life, it really look quite alike!

and not forgetting munyee! thanks bestfriend! helped me by sending song.

and photos these few days,

our ah kun lo ti!

and..








not forgetting to zilian!

and this picture is really funny.



what does it resemble of? firstly, we thought it was someone holding his part, but it was a leg! LMAO.

`shall off.

Woke up late today, in a bad mood.
Went to school almost late too.
Have to prepare everything in 10mins time.
Luckily packed bag last night before going to sleep.
And called the dental during my PE class,
I'm slacking, don't wanna play basketball.
And that dental girl is so dumb,
wasted my phone fee,
can't even understand what i'm saying.
And told her i can't go for the appointment today,
so changed it to next month,
1st of october.
and tomorrow have to stay back for extra lesson on ms goh homeroom.
what a sigh.
i shall cut hair soon!
since my hair is getting longer and longer,
shall asked my friends to accompany me along.
WAHOO
ohyea,
transfer song during maths from marvin.
and found a nice song,
it shall be my next favourite song.
Akon- Don't matter. <3x


I don't need your negative comments,
Neither do i need your positive comments,
I'm who i'm, i'm what i want to be,
If this heighten you, you're wrong,
Cause you know you'll never be able,
To supress me.

It was fun today,

Woke up at around 1pm today, waiting for aaron's call. And decided to go singing, so meet him and other friends, elvin and melvin, to kaster and sing, and it was so tiring, and funny of course. Rush there, and leg bleeding. So we sang till breathless, gonna die soon. And some noises started crumbling around. It was from the wall behind me, there were people beating it, and disturbing, so i decided to do it in the same way too, and melvin came along, which later he kicked by himself, and his leg is paining. After that we got bored, and went off kaster. We went to eat, and after that, played lan for a little while. Elvin was so damn pissed off by melvin, and i was laughing my ass off as i was owning them. And played audition too. Play what, win what. Wahhaha. Called Yeo manager and tell her that we would like to work for her next week till closing, since she's in need of people. Tomorrow starting school, only one word to describe, SIANSATION. And of course, not forgetting my dental appointment tomorrow! I'm wondering right now, what am i gonna do tomorrow as my dental appointment was on 2.20pm and i can only released at 2.00pm.

it was frustrated and an undecribable feeling. I'm like have been spotted by the god, and the god was out to punish me. Whether it is work or study, i'll never get it right. At study, i've been getting sucky grade, at work, i've been scolded again and again, been black-listed by many staffs as they told aaron that eh, he know this or that anot? For example, the stocks that was in carls jr was like expire? And i didn't know that, and took the new stocks instead of the old stocks to fry. And i've a body of wound now, hand and leg. And i was so bad-tempered for that moment, and started to give black faced. And of course, not many people see it, only aaron see it. I think so. But after that, it get busier and busier, and i'm soloing the fryer myself, and forget about everything, and happier, and that erm.. i forgot his name, he helped me with my chili beef fries! (: he helped me put cheese on it. And i've to say thanks, thanks, a couple of time to him. And xinhua! DAAJIEEEE(: she teach me how to do closing for fryer lah! love her! (: and i was like AHHHAHHH, for a couple of times, cause it was hot, and i was like afraid of the hotness, babe(: And racheal came in! HAHAHA, and she laughed, cause this happened.

DILLON: AHHHH
RACHEAL: *CAMEIN*
XINHUA: NOT HOT LAH!
RACHEAL: *WATCHING*, EH NOT HOT ONE, TRY IT
DILLON: I THINK I BETTER WEAR TWO THICKER GLOVES

then she was laughing like mad lah! and everyone was like, -.- so funny and that kiasu kid. LOL, and they was like playing with my name. -.- DILLONNNNNNN` that's what xinhua keep saying, and racheal followed. and they were like singing, i was like DIAOOOOO; and racheal say that she's having a concert at next year 7th month! HAHAHAHAH, we was like so fucking funny man. LOL, and closing that time, we sat at there, recapting things, haha, then started to laugh and laugh, and i say that i won't work again right!? BUT I PROMISED YEO THAT I'LL WORK MAN! WTFFFF-.- cause she's have little people working for her on saturday.. then see her pity.. decided to work.. actually i want work until closing.. but aaron don't want, so bo bian, next week won't be able to see xinhua! LOLLLL.

Went swimming just now, and it was fun~ i was intending to study while they swim -.- but i went down to swim as well! And we was playing instead of swimming. That's really funny. Darren ps us again. x[ he promised to come. what a liar. and we went shower after that, which provide soap and hotwater~ cause we were in safra. [x and we went to eat after that. [x we went to ahkun luodi. LOL~ :D and i ate quite alot. a set consist of bread, egg and ice lemon tea! and i ordered another bread again as i was still hungryy! x] and having soup later after this! shall upload photos next time ;D and have to work tomorrow! it was a total SIAN MANNNNNNNNN. -.- from 12pm to 12am still.

Mom and Dad will be back tomorrow! Then i'll have no worries about eating.. fetching.. and of course WASHING! WAAHAHAHA. ;D cause right now, i'm wearing very funny clothe and pant! Sleep sleep sleep again. Sigh! I afraid cannot study liao, cause this week is pack of event, or maybe tomorrow? :D cause aaron and gary are going to swim, well, i can accompany them, since it has been a age since i gone out with them, as i was always slacking at home. And they can swim for all they like! and i can study for all i want! ;D a double arrow with a double hit. And i've to work on saturday for my last day! 12pm to 12am man! a 12 hours torture! and they're planning to go to KTV on sunday! they say KBOX is more expensive -.- well, i'll just tag along and see how.

Sigh, parents gone overboard till friday! Have to settle my own meals, hahs x) And no one fetching me to school for some time! I miss them! ><'' Ohya, about the braces thingy, my sister have book appointment for me! thanks sis, (: it was on next monday 2.20pm. i wonder how am i going to reach there in time when i end school at 2.20pm. sure late.. it was funny today, lifang was throwing holy water at kokkiang, and i was half asleep. hahs(: they were so funny that i'm even laughed in my dream. been sleeping every maths lesson. it's so fucking boring! -.- and tired. and thanks missgoh! i love her! wohoo. she brought us files for our art. for us! for us! (: she was good man. and she was always like, no privillage to you man. D: cause im always slacking hahs(: and i think i gonna buck up my study cause it's less than 1month till the result came! sigh, my result sucks! omg. holyshit. LMAO. gonna go to carls jr and study someday. should i locked my blog? sigh.

ENGLISH; 54MARKS; GRADE5
CHINESE; 71MARKS; GRADE2
MATHS; 24MARKS; UGRADE
SCIENCE[BIO&CHEM]; 34MARKS; UGRADE
HUMANITY[HISTORY]; 72MARKS; GRADE2
ART; 69MARKS; GRADE 3

shall work hard for it!at least i should pass my maths and science man! and shall get grade1 for art, chinese and human! english fail then say bah; lmao! ): and darren, gary and me count the score together.. lmao.. gary counted his marks, it was 18marks. and i go on to mine. eh only 12marks man! so good! then gary started laughing, cause i forgot to count my Ugrade! so it counted up to 30marks! hahahs! and darren was laughing like an red apple. whole face went red. and i was so embrassed! >< LMAO.

I'm been feeling sick. And no one actually bother to find out nor ask. And went shyt in school today. I can't stand it. Cut my stomach please. It's terrible shyting always. and wujing is funny today(: she gave me a star shape thingy bah, so i treated it as gift of friendship bah. (: and this is what happened

WUJING: dillon later i give you something, wait ah..
DILLON: o.
WUJING: na, hope your exam pass bah.
DILLON: o.
WUJING: EH, WHAT MUST YOU SAY?
DILLON: say what? oh, when i think of it then tell you bah.
WUJING: ignore -.-

few minute later,
send a message to her.
thanks fer that ah. only the words is abit ugly only. and i went to sleep.
*tap tap*
WUJING: EH DILLON, WHERE GOT UGLY!
DILLON: got loh!
WUJING: FORGET ABOUT IT, GIVE ME BACK, I WRITE OTHER PEOPLE NAME, GIVE IT TO THEM.
DILLON: no loh, it's mine since you given it to me ler! (:

thats the first part(:

and i'm have been sleeping after recess for almost every lesson; it's really tiring. sigh. after school, wujing need my help on her art thingy, have to help her upload, so helped her. but =/
miss goh stopped the homework! hahas, she was like so damn sad, she say huh? oh.. while on her presentation. she and xiaoqin is super funny.

WUJING: eh how to delete this thing ah?
XIAOQIN: erm let me see, *click, click*

*something went missing*

WUJING: EH WHERE'S MY SLIDE?

and i went on laughing and laughing. cause it was so super duper funny.

XIAOQIN: DON'T SCARE ME LEH.
WUJING: GOT DELETE ANOT?
XIAOQIN: ..
WUJING: WAH HENG AH, NEVER DELETE.

but when the time she need me to upload, it cannot be upload! so it' was a total waste! hahah(:
they're so damn funny. and friends cameeee to library to find us.

WUJINGGG, MY FUTURE BRACES BUDDY<3

anyway, i decided to lock my blog in a few day later bah.





















STAR WUJING GAVE ME ;D

I quitted my job today, telling the manager i'll work for her till next week. And today, manager was like so pissed off with me, as i was slacking off; i don't care, neither do i give a damn. It was not known to public yet, so uh. i'll guess some of them will miss me! hah (:

and to someone;
you dare to tell my brother to slap me? and you dare to say you'll slap me? let me tell you something, no one ever seriously slap me before, even my parent. you'll try that to me, i swear you won't live till tomorrow.

i guess i will start studying soon, to buck up my studies bah. i'll won't be on my computer most of the time for now bah. and i think i starting to regret what i told the manager;

she don't like me anyway, so who cares? :D


yawnn. tired. can't hire a taxi and took a bus and almost felt asleep. -.-

Quarreled with 3person yesterday night, tell them not to bother me anymore. Sigh, i've been in bad mood for a long long time already. Despite for that fact, i still hold it, but the day come after another, i' cannot bear anymore. LEAVE ME ALONE, like all i fucking care. let me perish in the air.

i want to die.

PS: mom let me put on braces, but use my future money! SIGHH!

Listened to emo song and cried to slept last night, thinking about the past. it was such a sad past. i shan't explain lots, cause this 've been kept to me so much. and this is not being emo. cause he promise not to be emo! :D today was so much fun in the kitchen. alot alot fun! didnt really get to know xiaoyuan, cause she like not happy with me everytime we go to work, but finally got to know her, and found out that she's actually quite a friendly person! and my mom agree to help me pay money for my braces first ler! yay! my braces buddy is coming up soon! wohoo. and i've alot to mention, just forgot all! ohya, yesterday i scalded myself accidently, and today the wound is getting blacker, and the scalded feeling is so good! so shiok. cause today i go scalded purposely. so songgg!
try it one day :DD my friend almost hang his burger today! hahas, so he did 4burger on one time! i tried to take picture of it, but manager came it.
manager: "pretend never see"

me: "quick keep"
manger: "don't use again liao ah"
me: "o."

manager was like so damn good! loved her hahs. NELLIE came today! wohoo, and all of us like gone crazy. gaga. stop about work ler!

ohya, sorry joel, if you ever read my blog, im sorry to you. i shouldn't have shouted so loud at you when you picked up my pay slip yesterday! i was having headache and the pay slip was like only $87! i was like FUCK LAH. ccb. knn. then all "stunned" and i was so damn fed up. with headache and such a fucking low pay. today headache too. shyt; -.-

and sorry, i stopped being a stubborn people.. it was so hard to persuade someone to be my friend. am i that unfriendly? or being over-friendly? prephas im just being bhb. that's it.

PS: ohya elvin, sorry, i lost the very first sweet you gave me.

As resume, off to work again, but with a heavy headache today and got scalded a few time. Have been having 4 panadol since 11 till 3. and still having headache, but the most relief thing is, no more laosai -.- and on our way to work, we saw one cute baby on the bus who are staring at me,and thus i stared back, and so stared until they got off at chinatown. So went on to plaza sing and continued working. and sick until cannot tahan already, so left earlier, we was supposed to leave at 6, but so well.. aaron and i was sick! so we left together, ps all the staff there. haha! so i took taxi home while he meet elvin to go orchard. Oh ya, laptop have been fixed =)

BABY



And i suddenly have an urge of having braces, i missed my chance the previous time, because i didn't attend the doctor thingy! starting to regret but will still continue to work hard fer that. hopefully mom will let me put. with the help of her money first :D and shall return her one day. oh ya, and i want private hospital! xP

edited

Today was a meaningful day fer me, as it was the first time we designed the teacher homeroom and treat us food and drinks! We have bubble tea.. etc. tons. And, it was fun overall! We laughed and laughed, of course, not forgetting our misison. we have teamwork! and in around 5hours time, we done it! ha -.- and.. i did not forget to shyt! it was so horrible man. i really shyted fer 4days! ALL LAOSAI! -.- WTF. and that toilet got no tissue man! what a budget school! lucky got water to wash butt. hahas. and we went to eat after those hard work. TEACHER TREAT! so good right!? $40+ leh. what a good teacher loh!




and not forget to zilian -.-































and some of our work piece. :D



ya and im slacking after.



and..
someone took it fer me! thanks suen!





and i look really stupid in this photo.
not forgetting my mei! XD

and right now, im being stupid. i had 2computer right now, one destop and one laptop. and guess what? -.- im using the laptop now, and im using the destop to type. -.-
and i wrote this before i left!


should i just buy new spec? i wonder. i was craving fer contact hahas, forgive me, im just being lame. and. im being craving to cut my hair and buy contact lense! maybe when i get my pay, i should buy my contact lense, anyway, some of my friends say i wear spec nicer and some say i don't wear nicer, what do you think? should i buy contact lenselense and another side.. they want me to wear spec! rawr. -.- i'm confused. and, in the November, im ready to dye my hair! woohoo, and i feel like piecing.. but then my parent warned me not to do so, it's was like, a gangster act, for them, which they don't want me to be. this is so ridiculous. and..

i found a new interesting blog, which have the same thoughts as me. and his adobe photoshop skill is so good! lols, and i know nothing. lmao. someone can teach me some skills? ;D his blog is www.xandotablets.blogspot.com and if he see my blog, i hope to tell him that i envious of his blog! and admire his courage of having those words towards xiaxue! xiaxue insulted so many people, and she herself, don't even think of herself. this is none of your business, xiaxue. and his blog is fulled of humor and things like that. go visit his blog and you'll know. haha, i simply love his funny blog!

tomorrow have work -.- shall post after work tomorrow
falling sick soon.

ohya, and im just wondering if someone want to accompany me to watch movie!

It's 7.12pm right now and i've just started blogging. Did i say that i join nuffnang? Oh well, i've just joined nuffnang yesterday, and.. got many message on my tagboard.. yea. support me! view my blog regularly uh :D

today was quite a day fer me, as i am working today again.


our name tag;

I not sure why, but everytime i went to plaza singapura to work, i'll shyt. i really not sure why and im not being disgusting, it've happened 3time in a row. and i feel weak after each toilet. hah. i got no appetite these few days.. it was.. i'm not sure why i say this, but i only had a little throughout a day.. this is what i ate today..


6chicken stars;
that much only. and i only ate 2chicken stars only, which the rest i gave to my other friends in work. this is one greedy fellow!


nayzaw;
rawr, and after that, he ate 9chicken stars! and alot of fries and sauces! eat eat eat, he's getting fatter man! and we went to marina square and deliver goods, as our goods stock are low. and we went through mrt.. and.. i took a couple of pictures.


it was telling to go back instead of front;


emoing;
and after that, we went back! it was so heavy of the stock. LMAO. so customer coming..


and busier..


and from fryer jump to cook, and from cook jump to fryer.. jump here jump there. hahas. and this is the burger i've made.



SUPERSTAR;
did i say i love to wrap superstar? WELL, I DID! ;D
and..


CARLS CATCH;
and i hate to wrap this ugly burger!
and some nice burger;



haha, and we joke and joke and joke. today was really a fun day, except those bored one, like xiao yuen. lol, give attitude, but hahs, it's still nice overall! and i tell aaron a lame joke.. which i created myself. in 世界的唯一, there's this sentence, i will climb the deepest mountain, i will swim the deepest sea, 对我说的一字一句，多是我们的秘密, i edited to.. i will listen to you only, i will shave my armpit hair, 就算世界不要我蹄，我也会只听你一个, okay i know that's lame, cause i'm the only one laughing so madly and loudly while we're on our relax!

and we went home after that! the bus was filled with tons of people! and i am tired, really tired, and we have to go back to school tomorrow! sigh! ha, maybe i could serve you with some delicious burger! hmm.

shall blog tomorrow.
note: if you're looking fer part time job, kindly leave a message of your email at the tagboard.
thanks.

HELLOOO. first post in this blog. what should i say? I already have created 3 blog with help from my bestie MUNYEE(: bestfriends<3 thanks.

It has been a tiring day fer me, as the day go on and on, feeling depress after dissapointed while working, maybe you've read my blog, or maybe not, just to say, i'm sorry if i have cause so much unhappiness in your life. forgive me then, i can vanish, right infront of you, right now. If you hatred me, so be it. Working has been a experience fer me, maybe it's the only thing that i've been living fer, today was happy, lots of stuffs happened, funny things, everyone say about each other, and well, got a couples of good friends through each time of working. Carls jr, 'it gonna get messy, anyone wanna work there? Just leave a message at the tagboard! thanks, i'll try and ask. maybe even no one is reading my blog, or prephas, this blog will be dead like it used to be like the other blog, but i've think of it, nothing worth more than having this blog, which express the feeling and emotion of me. And i shall be on this blog often! :D

ohya, sorry, tag me if i haven link you in my blog; blog just started

Dillon Tan Yong Chen
16 on 26 December 92
Bukit Merah Secondary
xiaodi-dillon@hotmail.com


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