YSunday, October 7, 2007
Everything like came crushing on me again.
Studies, work, relationship and even friendship!
WHY? First, why?!
I really scare that i will retained. Please god, let my classmate promote too. I really cherished everyone beside me. I really want everyone to go up as one. God, give us a chance. Give Joel a chance too. I can see he is trying to work hard for it. Please, for the sake, I don't have many friends in this world already, I really don't want to lose any friend of mine. I rather scarifie for him. For everyone.
My work.. everyone is quitting. My best friend there, all are quitting. Friends there are quitting, why should I be there for? Xin Hua, Racheal, Li Ling, Leng Boon. Please, if you ever read my blog, for the sake of me, please stay? Yeo caused everyone to leave, but she is a really good manager. How i wish the world would stay that silenced, joy and hapiness.
I really missed ***. How i wish that *** could talk to me again. It might be a mistake for me, but it is a no way out now. Try to forget everything and concentrade on studies..
Friendship.. ha.. HAHAHAHA! This is too tricky dude, I'm trying to struggle throught every life of mine. World.. Please.. Wu Jing, please don't be childish already.. I can't stand it already.. Everyday, you have been throwing temper. For now, I don't wish to agrue anymore. Friendship with you with me is so fragile. How can you say a excuse that we don't wish to see you with us. Why?! You think we really hated you? Please don't be childish liao lah! I'm really pissed that you don't want to come and you can give a ton of excuse.
And my mom is telling me to get a girlfriend soon. -.-
Faggots the world. CHEEBYE.
World came crashing on me once again. Could things be turned out the other way round?
STRESSEDD`
Ohya,
found a new song that might suit all of you, shall changed my blog song to this maybe after 2 weeks.
High School Musical
Everyday
Sound really nice, expressing my feeling.
Please, make us last forever.
12.32a.m right now,
feeling so cold, only one person is online on msn.. there's no one I could take to, no one I can share my feelings with.. Surrounding of fear make me feel that timid once again. Choice is in my hands, it's whether i want to accept it or not.. FORGETTTTT''x
Thinking of this, I think it is so ridiculous! How could Aaron lie to me when I told him about all my secrets? I really feeling like crying, cry for the very last time, so I could forget everything, I really hope that I will have a car accident so that I could forget everything, I'm tired of getting scolded emo, gay. Scold for all you like, maybe I'm just escaping from the reality, maybe not. How I wish I could be like Averie, owning everything. Her studies is getting better, she got a stable relationship, and rich. But I'm so simple, my wish is so simple, I just want to live like the normal people. Stop getting critisized. I'm utterly dissapointed in everything. Friendship, relationship, living state.
How I wish I could grab your hands, running through that greeny field, with hugging you tightly, flying with both our arms and forces and scream out loud, unleashing our potential feeling.
off blogger ):
oh ya, anyway my new nick is 穷小弟 [:
I'm always pretending to smile, why?
Just to let my friends not to worry about me.
Will I stopped that one day and go crazy?
It's a feeling of asmatha when you are crying.
Life are full of experience,
Happiness and sadness are just one way of expressing our feelings,
Smile are just to cover over our sadness.
1.23a.m now,
and I'm really hurt right now.
who really understand me?
saw my brother previous post on his blog,
he say he is envious of my friends and me.
I'm really quite sad, cause even my brother don't understand me.
I don't really have friends, not true one.
They only know how to tolerate me,
and not change the behaviour of mine.
If they would have done so,
things wouldn't have turned out so bad.
Now i started to regretted,
having so much weakness.
L.O.V.E is not that simple.
YYY
Time have proven everything, your loss of my remains.
http://www.biddinggoodbye.blogspot.com/
